1. GOD IS SO MUCH BETTER THAN YOU GIVE HIM CREDIT.
Me. Me. Me. I thought I had it all under control. I knew God. I wanted God apart of my every day life but I wanted to hold the reigns. I wanted to hold the reigns a little too tightly until honestly, this year. He has broken down some walls for me and really changed me over the past year.
I can't tell you how many tears I cried in like a single day. It was insane. If I lost anything at all, I would have a complete melt down. I have changed so much. I still stay very focused on things that I need to do and that won't ever change most likely but if I lost my debit card, I wouldn't cry for 4 hours. Life has a way of taking care of itself. We are going to have our downs but we are also going to swing back and have our ups. Just ride the wave.
3.. YOU CAN EAT. ITS OKAY.
Imagine that? I can eat and not be a whale. I honestly believed at this time in my life that I was doomed for the rest of existence to eating basically 1000 calories per day. Yikes. Glad that's over.
4.. LIFE HAS SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU ARE TAKING ADVANTAGE OF.
The world is at our fingertips and we have like approximately 80 years according to averages, 100 according to my life plan for myself (hehe) to experience it all. I just can't even fathom sitting and not having experiences constantly. It's what wakes me up in the morning. I think that you have to really put effort into focusing on tasks that need to be done so that you can really enjoy the other moments. I'm constantly planning new adventures! #thepassionatelife
5. YOU CAN DO SO MUCH MORE THAN YOU THINK YOU ARE CAPABLE.
Y'all, I just ran a marathon. I just ran a marathon and qualified for the Boston Marathon in 2016. Like is this real life? Sometimes I think about the things that I push my body to do and it just makes me appreciate God and the intricacies that he put into us. Your mind is always what tells you to stop. For the most part (unless injuries of course), your body will not fail you if you just keep your mind in it. And that goes for anything. I stinkin graduated pharmacy school. Y'all, I'm not that smart. I'm really not. And I made it. You can too.
6. ITS OKAY TO BE WHO YOU ARE.
MAN OH MAN. This is a big one. I just wanted so much to please everyone. I still do to be honest. It's hard sometimes to live in my head. I have this complex that I have to do exactly what everyone else wants to do or no one will like me. It's so silly and I've grown up in a sense that I know who I am and I'm okay with that. I still don't assert my opinions and would call myself "meek" probably, but I also know that the beliefs that I have are okay. I don't question the way that I am or who I want to be. I've found ME. It's a cool feeling.
7. YOU REALLY DON'T HAVE TO BE A PHARMACIST OR BUST.
This will be a long post for another day about the things that you don't know about your pharmacist and how hard they work and what they go through. However, my note to myself at 20 would be to say that you don't have to be a doctor, teacher, lawyer, princess, Mcdonalds worker. Like honestly, you don't even know who you are when you go to college. You can think that you do but you really just simply don't. We all get so stuck in this bubble of A to B to C of what we want to be and don't really ask ourselves what we want to be doing for the rest of our lives. Think outside of the dang box. Do something cool. Do something that you are ACTUALLY passionate about whether that means money or not. There are other things that you can make JUST AS MUCH (actually more) money than being a doctor. Doctors are wonderful. We need doctors. But do you KNOWWWW what you have to go through to get there? Cuz it ain't pretty. Find what you are actually passionate about and pursue that.
With love and letters to myself,