This is definitely one of my non fitness related posts that I wanted to share with you. The Lord has really been pulling on my heart strings for the past two weeks, and I just have been thinking about life and missions and how I got the opportunity to spend a month in Belize.
I will start this post with the disclaimer that I was silly in Belize. I missed my husband terribly. I missed my routine terribly. It wasn't even that long of a time, and I look back with a new perspective wishing that I had really savored those moments for what they were meant to be. It wasn't that I outwardly expressed any of this but I was just like craving to go home, and I have just really matured (or trying to) in enjoying every moment that I'm presently in.
I actually had a cry fest this morning (#girlprobz, it's really not that serious). It's not because I'm not 100% happy but just because I look back at life and my personality is best described as not paying attention to any detail.
I tend to look like I get a lot done, and I do but sometimes I feel like I do nothing well. I just scratch the surface of the details and I need to put more time into each individual moment. If I'm learning something new or ask Tanner a question about something, he begins explaining details and I literally tell him, "I'm too busy. I don't care about the details. Thanks for answering my question." I'm just 100 miles per hour every single day, and Belize was a time for me to meditate in this, and instead I spent time wishing I could get back to it.
Belize is such a beautiful place. The people are beautiful. The scenery is beautiful, and everything is so relaxed, low pressure, and slow moving. You just have to spend time being instead of doing. You spend time with people rather than your phone.
The place that we stayed was much more than I could have imagined. I had weird emotions about it. I was thinking we were going to be in the middle of a village and camping out and when we got there, there was wifi and running water (not very hot but still had heat) and we had a full working kitchen. So, I was happy that I had everything I wanted and then I was like "ah man I wish I had this extreme mission experience" also.
We were connected to the clinic that we worked, and the doctor, nurse, and other medical student and his wife were all in the same area. It was just a little neighborhood with all of the houses for the people that work there, and so quaint.
I wish I had a picture of the actual place which I know I do somewhere, but I can't locate it. This is Rachel, the wife of the medical student that was with us. She taught art at the school while she was there and they actually were from New York City and went to the church that we now attend. It was a really small world, and we were SO blessed and thankful for their friendship. They are two of the best people I've ever met. This was just one day that we went on a walk through the village.
I keep saying we, and not saying who was with me. My best friend Brandy and I went to Belize together for an elective rotation for pharmacy school. She absolutely flourished in this environment, and I know that she could easily do it long term. She is a beautiful person in the Lord, and of course it was wonderful to spend endless hours with her as that was halted after marriage.
This was our last day and the day that they presented us with gifts. The lady standing with us is the beautiful, Esther. She was a pharmacist in Belize at the clinic and she was our preceptor for the month. She was nervous as this was her first time as a preceptor, but she did a wonderful job and was seriously the sweetest thing ever. I wish I could hug her neck right now.
We stayed in a town called Corozal, and each day we worked as the pharmacists of the clinic. The doctor (Jenn) was in the same facility so as the patients would come through, she would write the medication and then we would fill them just like normal and give our recommendations if needed. We would only have at most 15-20 patients in one day, so it was definitely slow moving. We helped them with inventory while we were there because the only way that they are able to get medications is through donations. One of the teams that comes every year was there while we were there and brought suitcases upon suitcases of medications and so we had to count all of that and organize based on what was expired and what was not.
We had a bible study every morning before we started work, and we went to church with them every Sunday. The church that we went to was very wonderful about speaking half in Spanish and half in English so we could understand most of the sermon. This was something that I think Brandy and I both wish that we had better prepared for. We both knew zero Spanish however we picked up medical lingo as we worked at the clinic and most everyone spoke English also so they were able to help us learn. They laughed at me and my redneck Spanish but it's the effor that counts right? I truly wish my brain could pick up language faster as this was a barrier in the Bronx working at Walgreens as well, but I'm just not very good.....like at all. Brandy, however, is really good! She was able to pick up much more! Tome una pastilla al dia (Take one tablet once daily). Happy Spanish lesson ;)
Another cool thing we were able to do is go on excursions. This was AMAZING!! Brandy explained this mission trip so well. It was a stepping stone into overseas missions. You were able to get the experience and you were able to delve into language barrier but the people also knew English and you also were able to leave the village and go into other areas that were more developed.
We went to an area that was honestly almost like a resort (but we stayed in a hostel) where we were able to even ride jetskis, hang out on the ocean, and go to fun restaurants and nightlife. Two other medical students that were there the first two weeks were Lauren and Louisa. They were from London, and oh my goodness, I just adored them so much. I wish we could have had more time with them, but they had already been there 4 weeks before us.
I look at my time there, and wow. I experienced so much. I could share so many more pictures and so many more experiences but I don't want to make this too long.
This is all of the people that worked at the clinic. The doctor, Jenn, is the one in the back right corner and she has three beautiful daughters (two were with us) and her husband is in this picture as well. The nurse is the one in the blue and her husband beside of her along with the medical students with us (Chris & Rachel, Lauren and Louisa).
I wouldn't trade the relationships we made with these people for the world, and the experiences that they gave us. Brandy and I both felt that the Lord moved us in big ways while we were on this trip and it's still hard to believe that we were able to do this for credit for a rotation for school.
I learned I need to rest. I learned I need to love people more. I learned I need to be present in moments, and also happy in all moments. I learned how much I love my husband, and I vowed in my heart to change when I came back and be more attentive and then of course, the routine begins and you forget again.
Even just writing this post has really revealed a lot to me reminding me of all the lessons that I learned and held so close while I was there.
With love and missions,