Welllllllll, I've been wanting to write this post for awhile, but I always just feel I can't get my thoughts together. I still don't and I probably never will but over some prayer last night, I wanted this to be today's post.
I would like to go ahead and make a disclaimer:
These are my opinions as always on my blog. This does not mean that I extend these thoughts to thinking that this is the calling for everyone. I'm just simply processing things through for myself.
I just simply decided on self acceptance because I refuse to live a life that isn't God ordained. I wanted to surrender my life, like my entire life. But what does that even look like?
Fitness is a huge passion & calling of mine. However, is this the way it should be approached? Am I making it an idol? Am I making my body important or my health important (things that I think the Lord looks at differently)?
It's hard to even put thoughts together because I don't want to make this a book, but I just feel we are called for more. I keep coming back to this thought:
Is what you are doing working towards furthering the kingdom of Christ?
I don't mean this in terms of only myself (because I have a following and what not). I just mean for everyone. Is what I am doing in my every walk furthering the kingdom? I believe that is the goal. I also believe that looks differently for everyone. I believe sin to one person may not be sin to another.
I think that this post may be more questions than answers, but then I think:
Are we making fitness an idol?
I think that again, that looks different for each person. I personally have a really relaxed approach but that did not come without practice. I know what makes my body and mind feel good and I don't think about the rest. I love to workout. I don't want to change my body. I just love the fit life and feel good doing it. Does that mean that I have it all figured out? Heck no. I'm just processing through this.
So, how does this physical body image thing play into what the Lord has to say about it. Stick with me please. I have so much to say on this.
"Do not make idols or set up an image or sacred stone for yourself, or sculptured stones so that you may worship them. I am the Lord, Your God."-Leviticus 26:1
I look towards women of faith such as Mother Teresa, Beth Moore, and Katie Davis. These are all just the first ladies that pop into my mind. I think to myself: How did they approach health and fitness? They are all small women. I feel they have it figured out. They just don't think about it. Their entire lives revolve around a Savior not food. For Mother Teresa and Katie Davis, their diets revolve around making sure that the poor around them are getting fed as well while also nourishing their bodies to be able to do the work of Christ.
God is so intentional in the things that he has planned for us.
"For you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. I know that full well."-Psalm 139:13-14
When you look at the creator of the universe and tell him that you are not happy with the way that you look, I picture that as a slap in His face to say that He didn't know what he was doing when he so perfectly knit you together.
"Therefore, I urge you brothers and sisters, to offer your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and pleasing to God-this is your true and proper worship. Do not conform to the patterns of this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind. Then, you will be able to test and prove what God's will is-his good, pleasing, and perfect will."-Romans 12:1-2
That one, for me, snaps me into reality.
What are the patterns of this world?
The patterns show us that we keep a scale in the bathroom and that we weigh right when we wake up (thankfully, I don't do this). We would be lying to ourselves if we didn't say that this determines the spirit of our day. Before we even sit down to have quit time with the Creator of the Universe, we have already determined whether today will be a good or bad day. Wow. Just no. I'm not okay with that.
Another pattern is that of self deprivation or self gluttony. I look at the patterns of this world, and it's so funny to stuff ourselves silly on Thanksgiving or Christmas and all through the holidays(not to be cliche but when there are starving children in Africa-because there really are). We, then follow it with self deprivation of thinking that now that the holidays are over, we will start afresh in the new year. We don't start fresh by thinking that we will just stop thinking about food in general. We commit to restrict ourselves more than ever to get the best bod and be in the best shape of our lives (I'm over exaggerating on purpose. I know we don't all set out starving ourselves).
What if instead, we focused on self renewal? Self awareness? Self peace?
What would that even look like in the realm of fitness? I don't have all (or any) of the answers. I just simply look at the trend in our society, and it breaks my heart. We are simply letting the devil win.
Think about how VAIN low self esteem is. We are SO concerned with our own bodies that we aren't concerned about how we could be furthering the kingdom. The way of the kingdom, I know, for a fact is not waking up in the morning and checking to see our ab progress, but instagram has made it okay. Everyone does it right? I post pictures of my morning abs, so I can assure you I'm not casting stones. And I'm not trying to be some weirdo. I've just simply had a lot of thoughts.
I feel as if this sounds as if I'm saying we should be content if we are overweight, underweight, or normal weight. I feel as if it sounds like I'm saying we should never go to the gym or think about our bodies and how to better them. I'm not saying that at all. I believe that we just simply need to view it differently.
The Lord created nutrients to fill and nourish our bodies. He didn't make these awful foods that we eat. Those are man-made. He made the foods of the Earth. He made whole and nutritious foods.
"Food will not commend us to God. We are no worse off if we do not eat, and we are no better off if we do" - 1 Corinthians 8:8
I simply read that verse as peace, unexplainable peace that passes all understanding.
For me personally, I think that means listening to my body more. I think that means to just eat when I'm hungry, stop when I'm full, and fill that up with nutritious foods of the Earth. Does that mean I can't count macros? I personally don't think so for me because I don't feel that I'm unhealthy or not at peace because of it. One day, I would like to stop completely. I'm not sure what that means for you either, but I hope that this article has at least made you take a step back and think about are we truly furthering the kingdom or are we further perpetuating the ways of the world that He so clearly outlines us to ignore in Romans.
With love and self peace,