Ever have a day where you are feeling so inspired by all the world around you that you feel you migh burst if you dont' write about it? I have realized that writing (if that's what you can call this blog because I'm well aware of the syntax errors haha) is something that is liberating for me. It's a way for me to connect my thoughts. My husband had never said this before but the other night he said he feels he gets to know me better on my blog. Don't get me wrong, I say these things to him but sometimes it's just so much easier to expres how you are feeling through written words. I think that's why reading has become such an enjoyable thing for me to do in between every other thing that is life. It allows me to escape into the beautiful writings and stories that someone felt compelled to tell. Writing is a pretty vulnerable thing, and I share my heart bleeding wide open in this space. Sometimes I wonder who has read some of my thoughts here that I will just see out and about in town haha!
We might not all write about it, but we all have this fire that beats within our soul. It's the thing that keeps us moving forward. It might actually be something that we don't even really identify and we are just doing the day to day but when the one topic comes up, it makes us get excited. For example, my brother is not someone to really set goals, but he has started a landscaping and lawn care business this past month and his heart is on fire.I love seeing it. He has made business cards and a facebook page, and he is ready to go.
Obviously, mine is endurance sports, health, and my career as an ambulatory care pharmacist (which luckily can sometimes go hand in hand) . Every single day we are given the opportunity to make it a day that sets our hearts on fire or we can sit in the background and become complacent with how things are. But the truth is, sometimes THAT IS YOUR PASSION. I know that sounds odd, but I know some people who are completely overwhelmed with big goals and hearts set ablaze, and the element of calm serenity is what gives them purpose and a path to do the best that they can and live their best life.
One thing that is shown in literature is that humans are really bad at predicting the future. At age 18, you think you have it figured out but at 28 you laugh at yourself. At age 58, you think you certainly couldn't change and are good to go with who you are but yet ten years later at 68, you think "Wow, I've changed so much." It's very fascinating, so if you don't have that one thing that gives you passion then that doesn't mean that you don't have a reason to be passionate about living life every day with purpose and drive. That doesn't mean that you don't seek to become your best in all aspects of your life professionally, relationally, athletically, intellectually, etc (whatever your choosing). We are all going to change, and right now, I think about the wind in my hair as I'm flying through a run and I get a thrill.
You might ask me what I think about when I run and I couldn't really tell you. I could give you a list of things that I go through but then when I really think about it, I realize that it actually empties my mind. It's a state of enlightenment and meditation for me to be able to just connect with my feet hitting the ground. I become who I'm designed to be without all of the other thoughts in my head or the worry. That is my time.
I'm sick with the flu right now, and this is literally DIRECTLY after finally healing my quad and ankle. I was good to go escalating mileage slowly at 9min/mile pace planning to do 14 miles today and I wake up with a 103 fever and haven't broke 101 all day with rotating Tylenol/Ibuprofen. I haven't been diagnosed with flu but symptomatology is there, so I'm laid up on the couch. This morning I was like REALLY (rolls eyes) but then as the day progresses I thought about all the reasons why I'm so thankful to not ever get sick most years. This is the first real sickness I've had in Tanner and I's 7 years together, so I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful for a sport that I know that I can do as long as I want, and that there is always other races if need be. I don't know what I'm going to do about Myrtle Beach Marathon yet, but honestly I'm not really that concerned about it. I'll figure it out.
This sport isn't about times or placings to me. Truly. I'm dedicated as can be to those things. I work more behind the scenes than I can even explain recently with mobility, stretching, meditation, focusing on motivation etc etc so of course I want it, but I'm honestly not competitive. I just want to have fun in my hobby that gives me so much joy.
I've been dreaming a lot about my children lately. I don't know what that means, or if it's just a figment of my imagination but I think about the people that I want to raise them to be. No one has a hand book on that (that's for sure), but I hope that as I guide them, I'm able to help them find that thing that makes them feel alive. I hope that they go to their job every single day with the same kind of passion that I have after my ambulatory care conference on Friday. I hope they strive to be athletic, but if they are artistic or intelligent then honestly, I could care less. I just want them to thrive. I want you to. thrive.
Ashley Horner posted an instagram caption about the new businesses that she is opening in 2018 and how busy she stays and how hard she works. That is my heart. Her attitude towards life is how I like to live -. full of passion and love.
None of any of this is possible without human love and connection. Writing is amazing, but it's even more amazing when we can connect with those around us that say "I get you. I'm there too." By pursuing what sets our hearts alive, we are able to be better for those around us. For stay at home moms, the very act that you do daily is your pursuing your passion lived out relationally. How amazing, right? Take your life, look at it through a different lens.
You don't need to be the best. You just need to take what life has placed in front of you, switch it, no matter what it is, and strive to make it YOURS. Make your mark. Don't get complacent. I don't care what your job is, and if you hate it that much, then there ARE other things you can do. There are ALWAYS other things you can. I don't mean that to berate you and I know that we aren't all given the same opportunities in life, but make this life your own.
Live life with intention, purpose, and drive. In all you do. Every single day.
Excuse the language in this, but Tanner showed me this video this morning and I love it!