So I wanted to give you an update on my training. Per the usual, something is going on. Gr. I’ve kept this to myself for a month now not because I’m ashamed or something but just because I feel like a broken record. I feel like I’m almost annoying to follow at this point because why can’t I just have a normal training cycle? I ask myself these questions every day. I seek counsel from friends and professionals that can look at things that maybe I’m being blinded by and try to figure out what is going on, but I’ve not had one training cycle that I’ve not gotten hurt in some way. The road to Chicago was my own fault so I take full responsibility for that, but most of the other ones are just frustrating. I will be honest and say that I feel like every time I try to do anything fast, something happens.
This started on the 16 miler that I did at 6:59 pace. This was part of my training and was on purpose. I didn’t just run that fast and I felt like my body could easily handle it. My heart rate was appropriate, but my quad started hurting a little bit. I did an 8 mile run the next morning to shake it out and it hurt the entire run but not like enough to stop so I finished that run. The next day, I fell out of my attic and sprained my right ankle. I had just sprained my left about a month prior while in Chapel Hill running and a huge rock was on the running path.
When I fell getting into the attic (long story), I just sat on the couch and cried. And cried. And cried. I was just so mad at myself. I always ALWAYS mess things up. I was clumsy. I should have waited for Tanner to help me do this one thing but I didn’t. I realized however that it was a happy accident that I would then get to rest my quad. I genuinely thought I had broken my ankle and my dream of sub 3 in March were over and the most frustrating part is knowing that I can. Like, I don’t mean that arrogantly. I just know from my times that if I can figure this crap out, I am capable.
So back to my saga –
I got an Xray the next morning and evaluated by my good friend, neighbor, and PA Walt (who has been so helpful with my recovery) and it wasn’t broken. Of course then I felt stupid for him squeezing me into an appointment and like a pansy that should have known that I was fine. But I couldn’t even walk. He told me it might would be a 2-3 week recovery. Well after 2 weeks, I really felt totally fine. I played it safe even waiting that 2 week period and I thought it was a happy accident my quad had time to rest as well. I swam a lot and just kept in shape.
I went for my first run and everything felt great. Because I had such a break I was flying at 6:45’s feeling like nothing with heart rate after 7 miles of average 145. It was a great run. The very next run, I felt my quad again. Oh boy. How is this highly innervated muscle group not better already? It felt good with pressure so I decided I would get an ACE bandage.
The next run I did 5 miles and could feel a lot of pain under the ACE but it was very dull so I finished that run, took the ACE off and thought “omg this is so bad” and knew I was going to have to stop running. That was a week ago and a few days ago. I haven’t run since. My quad hurts as much today as it did a week ago, and I’m honestly at a bit of a loss. I’m working with PT and doing everything I know to do. It’s mid belly quad, not attached to IT or any of that, so I think it’s possibly a quad sprain. Regardless, that’s where I’m at.
I’m not like that upset. Life goes on. My sport means the world to me but it’s not my world. Ya feel me? So, like I know that eventually I will get over this and all will be hunky dory again. But it’s just maddening. I haven’t had one training cycle in my 10 marathons/ultras that I haven’t had something and all I want is just to be able to train and get to the finish line. But like I said, I feel I’m always here complaining about my training so I’m sorry about that. I just wanted to share the update for Myrtle beach.
Right now, I still have time. I’m going to rest for another week and I think I’m going to stop biking as well and only swim. This past week I was told by PT I could bike, but I just feel like it’s not healing. It doesn’t hurt on the bike, but I do have to use my quad on the bike. Regardless, the one positive in all of this is the training that I’m getting for the ironman in April. If I’m 100% honest because of this situation, that has become my priority. I have switched back into full tri mode, and am doing long swims to keep up my fitness.
I will most likely be doing about an hour of swimming every day this week and then lifting upper body in the meantime hoping that this will be healed enough by next week to run again. I’m not sure though so I’m taking it day by day and staying positive. I know this is a melancholy blog post, but I also don’t really feel that “blue” about it. I think because I’ve dealt with this stuff so many times, you just learn that it is what it is. You do what you can. You don’t do what you can’t do.
Injuries always get judgements too like that all of us have the magic wand to know why XYZ happened to whomever it happens to and the truth is that whether you are a pro or amateur, injuries are just part of the process and if you are in it for life then you just keep hanging in there until things start feeling right again. You learn what it means to push through just minor aches and what it feels like when something is genuinely wrong.
I will never give up and I will always keep up my sport. I love it so much, but I just wanted to be transparent about what was going on after a month of dealing with it! 😊
I will say I’m a bit bummed because Myrtle Beach is such an incredible race so no matter what, I’ll show up at the start line even if it's just to be there with friends for a few miles. I have partnered with them again this year and you can use my code to get 10% off the race, half and full, and it is literally my favorite race and I’ll most likely be doing it over and over for years to come because I love it that much. CODE: FitScriptMBM
I will say this and this is something that I talked to Tanner about a lot last night. I'm not interested in the reckless athlete that I've been for years. I'm not interested in the girl who refused to clip in, get proper electrolyte supplements, or who won't just buy another damn pair of bike shorts. I have grown up and I want that to show in how I approach my races as well. I won't complete this race if I don't feel that I'm going to be able to do so and bounce back appropriately for the ironman. Originally, my A race was Myrtle Beach but now since all this has happened, my priority has become staying healthy for the ironman and having a really good race there. The intentions that I have as an athlete moving forward will be both tri and running focused, not just running focused (and I mean this for the coming years as well) and I want to work on my bike mechanics and programming so that I can improve in this area.
I used to be all about just completion of races and did really reckless things along the way just not paying attention to details and always having funny little stories to tell. I know that's kind of what I'm known for now but I just don't want to be like that anymore. It's highly silly and can be dangerous and I just want to be mature. That is all <3
With love and always freakin dealin with something (ha)!